She used to be the sweetest girl

I can't believe my junior year is flying by. Crazy.

I've started actual paper journaling, it's been a lot of fun.

Let's just discuss how much my professors scare me. Love it! Me and Tiffany have way too much fun in phillips.

meh, i'm so tired. i don't even know what it's like to function anymore, no joke.

college has been rough....

Go on and let the rain pour I'll be all you need and more

What do you think of me, Random Music Player?
[2005]Sleep Spent-Death Cab for Cutie
[2006]Honorable Mention-Fall Out Boy
[2008]Rub One Out-Whoa
I make my music player masturbate to thoughts of me.

Will I have a happy life?
[2005]Disregard The Past Few Days-Daphne Loves Derby
[2006]Do You Remember-Cars Can Be Blue
[2008]Fireman-Lil Wayne
A happy sex life apparently.

What do my friends really think of me?
[2005]Promise-Simple Plan
[2006]I Woke Up In a Car-Something Corporate
[2008]Since You’ve Been Gone-Kelly Clarkson
They’re happier without me

Do people secretly lust after me?
[2005]SOS-Good Charlotte
[2006]Ruthless-Something Corporate
[2008]A Better Place, A Better Time
Well, they don’t want me to kill myself...

How can I make myself happy?
[2005]So Contagious-Acceptance
[2006]Love Song-311
[2008]White Lines-Alexz Johnson.
Cocaine.

What should I do with my life?
[2005]A Gentleman Caller-Cursive
[2006]Wuthering Heights-The Decemberists
[2008]Make Damn Sure-Taking Back Sunday
Make damn sure of what...

Why must life be so full of pain?
[2005]Next Time-Soul Decision
[2006]I Don't Need a Man-The Pussycat Dolls
[2008]The Siamese Cat Song-Lady and the Tramp
Because siamese cats exist

How can I catch a leprechaun?
[2005]Superstar-Ruben Studdard
[2006]Pull My Hair-Bright Eyes
[2008]Love Song-Sara Bareilles
Write it a love song.

Will I ever have children?
[2005]Tiny Vessels-Death Cab for Cutie
[2006]Lose Yourself-Eminem
[2008]Sunday Drive-The Early November
I guess so, if we’ll never be the same.

Will I die happy?
[2005]Champagne-Sugarcult
[2006]Right Here Waiting-Clay Aiken
[2008]Lovers Turn Into Monsters-Bright Eyes
No, my lover will be a monster

Can you give me some advice?
[2005]Video Game Heart-All Girl Summer Fun Band
[2006]Bringin Da Noise-Nsync
[2008]Aliens Exist-Blink 182
Self explanatory.

What do you think happiness is?
[2005]I Will Buy You a New Life-Everclear
[2006]Sun-Mae
[2008]On The Wings of Love-Clay Aiken
Aww, being in love!

Do you have any advice to give over the next few hours/days?
[2005]K-Hole-Cocorosie
[2006]This Love-Maroon 5
[2008]American Pie-Catch 22
Doesn’t sound good...

A song for me.
[2005]The Guilt Engine-Gatsby’s American Dream
[2006]Catch My Disease-Ben Lee
[2008]Walk Me Home-Mandy Moore
I need someone to talk with me

A song for Brett.
[2005]Call and Answer-Barenaked Ladies
[2006]We Intertwined-The Hush Sound
[2008]Bike Scen-Taking Back Sunday
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't stop this
anymore than you can

A song for Sarah.
[2005]Satisfied-Five
[2006]Down And Out-The Academy Is..
[2008]Ice Ice Baby-Vanilla Ice
You win.

A Song for Kayla.
[2005]Rockstar-Jimmy Eat World
[2006]Big Apple Heartbreak-Yellowcard
[2008]Temporary Insanity-Alexz Johnson
Guess you’re crazy

A song for Traci.
[2005]The One feather tail of Miss Gertrude McFuzz
[2006]Story of a Lonely Guy-Blink 182
[2008]A Sorta Fairytale-Tori Amos
Your life is a fairytale.

A song for Rachel.
[2005]Poison Oak-Bright Eyes
[2006]That's When I'll Stop Loving You-Nsync
[2008]Hands Open-Snow Patrol
I keep hoping your heart opens

What will tomorrow be like?
[2005]Tigerlily-Matchbook Romance
[2006]For You-The Calling
[2008]One Night Only-Beyonce
A one night stand

What will next year be like?
[2005]Top of the World-All American Rejects
[2006]Cheek To Cheek-The Starting Line
[2008]I Will Be Here-Clay Aiken
Someone will be there

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

Nobody reads this, but this story is too funny not to tell.

So around 8 pm my throat swells up like a balloon. I'm in the middle of studying for an exam mind you. So all studying goes out the window. Around midnight I try to sleep, and I fall asleep about 1 but I only sleep till 2. I wake up and feel like dying. So I call my mom and she tells me to go to the emergency room. So I do it. First of all, it takes 3 people to admit me. They attempt to take my blood pressure on the lower part of my arm. This takes 3 tries. The nurse hands me a tv remite and leaves. I watch degrassi for about 10 minutes, and then a doctor comes in, inspects me for 5 minutes, and sends my culture to the lab. I then sit for an hour and watch Degrassi. He comes back and tells me I don't have strep, and tells me he can treat the symtoms and asks if I'm allergic to anything. Not only do I have a bright red allergy bracelet that says "ibuprofen" on it, I tell him also for good measure. 15 minutes later, a nurse comes in and gives me a paper about my "viral pharyngitis". On the paper it says "Allergies: none." He then tells me I can take ibuprofen with my pain killer. I come home, look it up, and see that they gave me vicodin.

Keep it classy Grady Memorial Hospital.

( I was bored )

Today, I totally spilled iced tea aaaall over my laptop. I performed emergency surgery with paper towels and a hair dryer, and it seems to be alright. Poor baby, it was in perfect condition before. Oh well, it happens.

Today was a very Julie day, it was dreary and raining. Sort of like in my head.

( Severe severe boredom )

Today was definitely a good day. I didn't have any classes so that automatically wins, and I got to sleep in. A long time ago, I said the one thing I wanted was a friend to listen to welcome to the black parade with me and dance like a retard. And today I realized, I've had that all along. My roommates and I were in the car dancing and screaming the lyrics and it was just what I wanted. So I'm happy now. College just might be good this semester.

So pretty much the scariest thing in the entire world just happened to me, and it actually wasn't the first time. I was dreaming about something or other and I was really dizzy, and I woke up and I was still dizzy but I was lying in bed totally paralyzed and my heart beat was slowing down and whatever sounds were going on around me started skipping and all I could hear was my heart pounding in my ears. I thought I was dying, I really did. So now I don't want to sleep. But I really need to. This sucks.

( The wedding I'll never have )

The colors will be pink and green. My dress will have a sash the color of the flower girl's dress, and the flower girl's dress will have a pink sash. I love dress 2, but I'm leaning towards one because it's much more simple and elegant, and that's what I'm going for. It will be in the spring, late April or early May. Now I just need to find a husband...

Sarah 344
Miabrit 223
Brett 1,209
Home 217
Rachel 79

This disgusts me. Brett, you better thank the heavens that I can call you for free. Sarah, a not so close second. Step it up Rachel. Step it up.

Kate, its your ride
Get your petals out lay them in the aisle
Pretend
Your garden grows its your day to wed
We found your man
He’s drinking up he’s all American
And he’ll drive
He’s volunteering a grace to end your life
You tidy up,
Its sad to hope
leave your shell to us
You explode ,
you firefly and tiny boat with hope
Feather old ,
the world tilts back
And pours and pours and so
You Satellite
You tidal wave
You’re a big surprise
And I
One more night
To be your mother

They signal "interrupt"
Find it's frequency not strong enough, remade
My hands and smile
We will miss you
But in time you’ll get settled
We will right (breathe in)
So breathe
Yea, you were right about me
Can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me
And in the choir
I saw our sad messiah
He was bored and tired of my laments
Said I’d die for you one time but never again
(Never again )

well i love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

well i love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

One I love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

Two I love you so much

but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

Three loved you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

Four I love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

Five love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

Six I love you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

seven loved you so much
but do me a favor baby don't reply
because i can dish it out
but i can't take it

seven loved you so much (never have to be down to earth)
but do me a favor baby don't reply (never have to live together on this peice of dirt )
because i can dish it out (never have to find my baby in the crowd..)
but i can't take it (Well I should be laughing right now…)

seven loved you so much (never have to be down to earth)
but do me a favor baby don't reply (never have to live together on this peice of dirt )
because i can dish it out (never have to find my baby in the crowd..)
but i can't take it (Well I should be laughing right now…)

seven loved you so much (never have to be down to earth)
but do me a favor baby don't reply (never have to live together on this peice of dirt )
because i can dish it out (never have to find my baby in the crowd..)
but i can't take it (Well I should be laughing right now…)

Brett Cushing listens to Good Charlotte.

nooneofvalue: GIRLS DON'T LIKE BOYS GIRLS LIKE CARS AND MONEY

Oh what a tangled web we weave...

So I still feel sick. Icky.

The thing I hate about our room is everybody has to walk by it, so we get all the loud kids coming back to their room at 2 am. It's not fun. Especially when you have an early class.

So I hate my spanish class so much it makes me sick. I don't want to go tomorrow. Don't make me!!!

This dorm room is so boring.

Dear World,

I have one word for you.

Tact.

Get some.

Thank you.

Sincerely, Julie

P.S. This is friends only. Friends with tact only.



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